I've beenexactly whereyou are.

I grew up loving food loudly. I thought about it constantly, planned meals in my head during class, read recipe books before bed. Cooking for the people I loved was how I showed love.

But behind that passion lived something far more complicated. I was a self-critical child, always aware of my body, always measuring it against an invisible standard I'd absorbed without realising it. Food became emotional very early. It was comfort when I was anxious, celebration when I was happy, company when I was lonely.

Around twelve or thirteen, I went to my first nutritionist. There was a plan. There were rules. And the rules, at first, felt like relief. I lost weight. I felt in control. And then the rules broke, and I gained it all back, sometimes more. So I went back. Another nutritionist. Another plan. The same cycle, slightly varied, across my teenage years and into my early twenties.

Restrict. Lose. Slip. Eat. Gain. Feel terrible. Restrict again.

I lived inside that loop for years. I was doing everything I was supposed to do, and it wasn't working. And because it wasn't working, I assumed the problem was me.

What changed at twenty-seven wasn't dramatic. There was no single moment. What happened was I started asking different questions. Instead of 'what is wrong with me?' I started asking 'what is my body trying to tell me?' That shift, from self-blame to curiosity, was the beginning of everything.

I started learning about hunger. Not just physical hunger, but the other kinds. I understood my cravings not as signs of weakness but as signals. And slowly, the loop broke. Not because I found a better diet, but because I stopped and started learning to eat, really eat, for the first time.

The food was never the problem. The pattern was. And patterns can be rewired. That's what I built The Craving Code to do.